MPS Mira Romp Audio v1
Hi, I’m Mira, and this is my psychedelic story. I’m 25 years old, I grew up in Florida, and I love to dance, I love to sing, I love my friends and my family, my rabbit, Moon. So, I remember it was New Year’s, and it was in Canada, and we don’t have to say that, but it was New Year’s Eve, and I drank mushroom tea, and this was my first time doing a heroic dose of mushrooms, and I remember the visuals being super intense.
It was like I was seeing so many things, and it kind of felt like I was a little bit overwhelmed by the experience. I think going into psychedelics, when I first began, I was going into it more of like a party setting, with not much knowledge of, you know, how it should be properly used as medicine, and it was really intense for me, but what really stuck out about the experience was that I seemed to be faced really intensely with all of the issues or things that I had within me that needed to be worked on, and it was like all those anxieties and things like that were really brought to light, and it was probably a combination of being in the wrong environment and, you know, also just having a lot of things that I needed to work on at the time, but it wasn’t necessarily a pleasant experience for my first time, unfortunately, but it was still very profound and stuck with me for a long time, and I’m grateful for it. I would say that, like, my relationship with psychedelics, mushrooms especially, has grown into something beautiful over time, whereas in the beginning it was something that was a little bit scary for me and overwhelming.
I feel like every time I had a trip, I learned something, you know, and I feel like the medicine has something to teach everybody, you know, and actually what I realized is that whenever I started taking mushrooms, I would have these really intense, almost like anxiety attack, panic attacks, and until I sat down and meditated and listened to what was going on in my body, you know, I wasn’t able to really enjoy it, but when I started to do that, I started to realize, oh, this is, like, helping me to face the things that I have going on inside, because I had a lot of anxiety back in the day, and every time I would do mushrooms, it would make it even more intense, so then whenever I was sober, it was almost like I knew I could handle it. I’m like, well, I survived that, so I know I can survive this, and it really helped me in terms of, like, panic attacks and anxiety, and yeah, like, if there’s ever a time where I feel really uncomfortable or really just emotional on mushrooms, I’ll sit down, and I’ll sit with the feeling, and I’ll try to find, like, what is this medicine trying to show me and trying to, like, help me work through, so it’s really good. Right now, I’m in a place where I just microdose, and I just feel more connected to Source, you know, God, the universe.
I feel like I can flow freely. I love to dance, you know, and just, like, connect to my body, and it always feels like I’m healing in some way, you know, whenever I’m on them now, so my experiences with them have definitely gotten more positive over the years. I feel like just going into it, like, right off the bat, especially taking higher doses can be really overwhelming, but I feel like over time, you know, like, microdosing and getting comfortable with the sensations and the feelings, and watching that anxiety and stuff that I used to feel transmute into something beautiful and euphoric, you know, and, like, bringing out this playful, childlike side of myself, it’s just, it’s really beautiful watching that, you know, it’s like an inner alchemy that happens.
It’s really powerful. I also think that we just are more perceptive on mushrooms, too, like, we’re able, like, at least I feel like I’m able to connect with nature, connect with animals, connect with others, like, in a more profound and intimate way, you know. I think it’s beautiful.
I think it’s connected me more to myself, like, there was this one time that will really stick with me forever, and I did mushrooms alone, and I did have a bit of anxiety, but I was able to break through that and just really connect, you know, with myself, and I remember looking in the mirror, and it felt like for the first time, I saw myself through the eyes of love, like, true love, and I looked at myself in the mirror, and I said, I will never forget you, and I still have never forgotten that, so I feel like mushrooms have brought me closer to myself, my soul, you know. It’s like it’s peeled away all of these layers of, like, ego and fear and all these things and, like, brought them to the surface and the light, and then a breakthrough happens, you know what I mean? It’s hard to explain, but… I would say that my most profound insights from my experiences with mushrooms have been, or my most profound, okay, I would say that my most profound insight from my mushroom experience would be to be, I’m always reminded to be grounded and rooted in love, and using that vibration and energy as my anchor when times get tough or when a trip is, you know, bringing some things to light and I’m having anxiety, I can always remember that, and whenever I ground myself in love, I can feel it, you know, most profoundly on mushrooms, so it’s a really beautiful thing that I’ve been able to apply in my day-to-day life as well. The way that I first started grounding and rooting myself in love on mushrooms was… It was actually when I was having a really intense experience.
I took a small amount, but I didn’t realize it was more potent than it, you know, I thought it was, and I got this intuition, this feeling that I needed to lay down and meditate, and it was like, in my brain, there was this dialogue, and it was almost like a meditation, but it talked about, I’ll kind of recite it back to you, so it said, all of the pain, all of the sadness that you’ve experienced, you’ve kept tucked away for a very long time, buried somewhere far away, but you can still feel it resonating and pulsing, you need to, actually I said, all the pain that you’ve experienced in your life, you’ve kept far away, buried and locked in a chest, you need, but you can still feel it resonating and pulsing and present, you need to go to that chest, open it up, hold that pain in your hands, and say thank you for what you’ve taught me, thank you for getting me to where I am today, and I remember just feeling, like, holding my pain in my hands, giving myself empathy, and just sitting with that, just being what I needed to do, and like, honoring the pain, and it’s like it brings about a sense of acceptance and forgiveness and love, and then I remember just feeling like going and laying down with my rabbit, and that’s what really helped connect me with that, and as I was laying with her and petting her, all my anxiety soothed, and I remembered, you know, that, to breathe and connect and ground and root in love and loving feelings, so, you know, if I didn’t have my rabbit, then I would simply just, like, hold and sit with myself, you know, or if you have a partner, like, hold and sit with your partner, and just get into that soft and comfy space within yourself where you can feel and give and receive love. Well, I would also like to talk about, I think that psychedelics has really helped me in terms of my addictions and, you know, being addicted to alcohol. I have had my struggles with alcohol in the past, and I think that mushrooms have, you know, given me an outlet to feel stimulated and connected and be able to, like, let loose a little bit and get into my body and, you know, dance and have a good time without damaging my body, and I mean, I’m just, I’m so grateful for them.
I mean, alcohol definitely keeps you at a low vibration. I feel like mushrooms are something that, if you allow it to, can help you to, like, raise your vibration and tap into, like, higher states of consciousness, and it’s definitely a journey within the self. You know, everyone’s mushroom experience is going to be very personal, and, you know, the things that come up and, you know, just the feelings and sensations, it’s all medicine, you know, so instead of alcohol, which is, you know, basically poison.
